Sunday, February 28, 2010

discontent () n. A restless longing for better circumstances.

OK, so two days of laying bed and watching movies has made me come to a realization (and no I am not sick, I just have A LOT of free time.) I NEED A PASSPORT. I need to travel, to get out and see the world. I love everything that traveling entails. I love trying new foods and experiencing different ways of life. I love exploring new cities and the excitement of getting lost only to find my way again.

It frustrates me to think that I have never been outside of the country. I would love to take a year or more and just go and if I thought it were possible to make traveling my career, I would do it tomorrow. One of the major things that is holding me back is that I know myself and I would never be able to do it alone. I would need companionship and someone to share the experience with. I am not to saying that I wouldn't want time to myself or that I am incapable of being alone. I am just saying that it would be hard for me to be somewhere alone w/ no one else understanding or sharing in a similar experience.

When I actually think about the reality of doing something like taking a year off and picture myself talking to someone about it the picture is my head is very bleak. It's always someone saying that taking a year to travel and leave everything behind is frivolous and silly or unrealistic. That is what is so disheartening about this whole thing. For me personally, I don't feel like I have even begun to see a fraction of what the world has to offer and it worries me to think that I am never going to be able to see everything. In a way I feel like I am missing out by not getting out there and seeing what there is to see.