Monday, June 20, 2016

My Dad and the Dragon



Today has been a rather exciting day for me.  One of my photos (the image above) ended up on the visitsaintpaul.com website.  It's the first time I have ever had any of my photos promoted by anything remotely official.  The fact that they used this image makes me so excited because I have always had an obsession with this tower.  Ever since I was a young girl living in the W 7th St area I have loved driving over the high bridge and seeing it.  It signified that I was home after the long road trips my family would often take and made me excited for my own bed.  My Dad would also sometimes let my sister and I tell him how to get home using the brewery as our navigational starting point.  From that point forward it was then our job (depending on who's turn it was) to tell my Dad where he needed to go and which direction he needed to turn.  If we told him to turn the wrong way he would go the way we told him to so that we would then have to correct our route instructions.  I like to think that this was the first version of GPS available. The child navigational system.

Today though, I was reminded of a story that my Dad used to tell about a different tower.  It's a story about the old NSP tower that used to be down by the river.  That tower also has been cemented into my childhood memories.  As you can see my Dad is very creative and because of this he is also a very good story teller.  At bedtime he used to tell my sister and I a story he made up about a dragon that lived in the NSP tower. In this story there was a princess that had been captured by the evil dragon that lived in the tower.  He had stolen her from her home and taken her to the top of the tower where he was holding her captive.  The prince heard of the princess' capture and immediately jumped into action.  He knew that he was not going to be able to defeat the dragon on his own so he called upon a wizard friend of his to help him out wit the dragon.  The wizard suggested that they also call upon the trees.  The tree that was across the street from the house that I grew up in came to life and helped the wizard and the prince save the princess.  The dragon was then forced to live out the rest of his days alone and in the top of the tower. That story was my favorite story growing up and I think I ended up asking to hear it every night.  Every time it got cold enough that you could see the smoke coming out the the tower my sister and knew that it was the dragon up there still longing for his princess.

We ended up moving out of that house when I was about 10 years old and the tower has since been knocked down.  I'm not even sure if the tree is even still around.  But, in my imagination the prince has always looked just like my Dad.


Monday, May 16, 2016

Perfectionism

So here is a little secret about me.  I am a bit of a perfectionist.  If I can't do something really well, I won't do it at all.  The bad news is that one of the things I can slay at is eating.  I am a phenomenal eater.  I love healthy food.  I also love unhealthy food.  I really just love food.  That love is the reason that I am not happy with my size and don't have great stamina. And then, because I don't have great stamina, that perfectionism thing creeps in again.  Can we see the pattern that is starting to present it's self?  

I don't have these same unrealistic standards for people I care about, it's only for myself.  I am actually a very forgiving person when it comes to the people I care about.  But why is this something that is so hard to do for ourselves?  I honestly don't have the answers and that isn't really what the post is about.  This post is about a promise I am making to myself to give myself a bit of a break.  I don't need to be perfect, I just need to be better than yesterday.  

Most of this call to action has come from a book that I have been reading called Level Up Your Life by Steve Kamb.  He is the founder and creator of NerdFitness.com as well as a former shy and introverted nerd.  He's still a nerd, but he has been able to overcome the shyness and start to live the life he has always wanted.  I'm not even done reading the book yet, but I feel like I need to take action on it.  That's an excellent sign of a good book in my mind.  Any who, the book has been giving me the inspiration I needed to start to make some changes in my life. I feel that in order for me to start to make these changes I need to make my declaration public.  I feel that I need the accountability in order to make it happen.  

So here it is my public declaration.  This is where my story will unfold.  I am going to try as hard as I can to not let my perfectionism get in the way.  I am going to try to be as forgiving and patient as I am with my friends to myself.